I am going to have an HIV test soon. Please pray with me that I do not have HIV. I am very worried and anxious.

To give you some background, some time ago I was engaged to a man who asked me to have my blood tested for everything. Having already been married once before, I did not think it an unreasonable request, so I obliged, especially since there were infidelity issues on the part of my exhusband. My HIV test came back negative, thank God, however something else came back positive and it was the end of the engagement. It was difficult enough to deal with the test results, much less lose my fiance in the process. I am still not sure which hurt more.

After that I had a mental breakdown and was not careful about who I was with (though I only was with people who tested positive for the same thing), and I engaged in some very self-destructive behavior. I was so upset and agry that I had been so careful for the last 14 years, not slept around, and still had someone betray me like that and give me a disease. I dont know why I did the things I did, but I flipped out and sinned. But thankfully the Lord sent some people in my life who helped me stop that behavior, so it only lasted a couple of months.

Fast forward to now. I have been dating a nice Christian man for some time now, and we have refrained from being intimate. He knows about what happened, and about my health status, and is ok with it. He tested positive for the same thing. We are beginning to talk about the possibility of a future together. But now he wants to go get HIV tests together. And I am so afraid. I am so afraid that the same thing will happen all over again, that I will lose another "fiance" (not officially engaged yet) to the results of a blood test. I dont want to lose him. But I dont want to give him HIV either, so I will have the test. No doubt about that.

But I suppose that if that test comes back positive, I will have bigger things to worry about than losing a fiance. I have a daughter to raise. I just dont think I can survive a repeat of past events with a much worse and deadly disease.

So please pray with me and ask the Lord to be merciful to me. Please ask that I will test Negative for HIV, and that I will never ever get anything worse than what I already have. Please ask that my dear friend will also test negative, and that he will never get it either.

And one last thing, please have yourself tested for stds, even if you think you are not at risk! I was married for 7 years to someone who I had no idea gave me an incurable disease. Praise the Lord that it is not a fatal disease, and will not affect my life terribly. Praise the Lord that I have never had a symptom. I do not even know the discomfort that many who have this disease suffer through. Thank you Jesus that I am symptom free. But I encourage everyone to get blood tests for everything. If I had not had a blood test, I would never have known, and perhaps infected someone else if I remarried without knowing about it. I thought just because I was going in for regular "woman" exams, that everything was ok because my doctor didnt see anything. This is not true. Please get your blood tested and know your status.

And for the young people who may be reading this: Condoms do NOT protect you from every disease! You can contract herpes even if you use a condom! Oral sex is still sex and there are many diseases you can contract that way as well! We need to obey God! God gives us commandments to protect us, not because He does not want us to have fun, but because He LOVES us and does not want us to suffer! If my exhusband had obeyed the Lord and not commited adultery, I would not have a disease. If I had obeyed the Lord and not flipped out and fornicated, I would not be worried to death right now.

Don't suffer through what I am suffering through. Obey God. To be honest, I deserve HIV. I have sinned. The wages of sin are death. Yes, I deserve HIV. It would serve me right to suffer the consequences of my actions. But we worship a merciful God. Please, please pray with me and ask God to have mercy upon me and protect me from HIV.

Thank you so much for your prayers. May the Lord bless and protect each and every one of you, and your loved ones. In Jesus'name, Amen

Lord I pray good wisdom and salvation in the name of Jesus and thank you Lord

Heavenly Father, Lord GOD Merciful and gracious, we com along side this sister, who has already been a beneficiary of your mercy, thank you that you have watched over her and kept her inspite of the situations that have come in her life. Father we come in the name of Jesus, we come asking that the results of this test be negative. LORD we know that nothing is to hard for you. We come thanking you for her testimony proving that what the enemy meant for evil, what he meant to destroy her, you turned it around for good. We pray that she continue to grow in grace and knowlege, that she will trust you in all things and not be shaken by the circumstances of life. Lord we pray that you will be in the midst of her new relationship, we pray that you will do in both of them what is need to have the godly relationship that you require. Father we thank you in Jesus name AMEN.

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Thank you so much for your prayers. Yesterday morning I went to get a DNA PCR HIV test. It is supposed to be more accurate than the regular antibody test. It was quite expensive, since my insurance wont cover it, and cost several hundred dollars. My insurance only covers the antibody test. The DNA PCR test looks for the actual virus, so it is more conclusive than the antibody test. Some people with HIV test negative for antibodies and think they dont have it, just because their body has not started making antibodies yet. Anyway, I will get the results friday or monday. The waiting is the hardest part. I can't even begin to tell you the terrible things that are going through my mind. Please keep me in your prayers. Please pray that everything is ok, that I do not have hiv. Thank you so much. You guys mean so much to me. I have visited this site for what seems to be years, though I rarely post. God bless you.

Heavenly Father,
I pray that you will have mercy on this woman,and forgive her of her sins. I pray that her hiv test will come back negative. In Jesus name. Thank you,Lord. Amen.

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The test results are negative! Praise the Lord!

I am so so relieved and so thankful to God for His immense mercy to me! Thank you so much for praying with me!

Someone told me that grace is when God gives us something that we do not deserve, and mercy is when God does not give us something we do.

All thanks and praise be to our merciful Lord and Saviour!

I hope and pray that any young people reading this will realize the need for sexual purity. God only gives us rules because He loves us, not because He doesn't want us to have "fun" (what's fun about worrying about an hiv test?!?! My week has not been fun, I can assure you of that!). God does not want these bad things to happen to us. Let's not bring them upon ourselves. The wages of sin is death. Stay pure!